Thursday, 17 September 2009

Out of sorts - on Thanksgiving Thursday

I am tired.
I am way over stressed.
I am sick (once again)
Apart from Tuesday night, I have not slept through a night in weeks.
For the last two weekends I have taken all the childcare responsibilities on me.
I have had it!

With absolutely spotless timing my precious MIL is coming for a visit on Tuesday night. She has offered to sleep in the room with The Boys and I know that for one week I can at least leave some of my responsibilities to her.
Now that is a huge item to note for Thanksgiving Thursday!!!

Playing along with Thanksgiving Thursdays now at Elyse.

You see, I am just out of sorts - it has been a very very tough year. I remember thinking back last year with The Boys' first birthday that we have made it! The next year will surely be easier. In many ways it has been tougher. Hunter and I are both trying to get back to our interests which involves us doing more "single" parenting at times to free the other, where in their first year we did not do much of it. His guiding means I spend weekends alone, which are often tough and exhausting. But getting easier every time. His studies also takes his time and I greatly admire his dedication towards making a better career for himself and for us.Off course, it means that I take getting up at night for the kids and looking after them on weekends on myself. He tries to help at night but frankly, I have taken this too much on me - now the kids want nothing to do with him at night. My own fault for trying to help him out as much as possible I guess. At times I just feel that I have nothing left for myself. I don't even want to talk about work - it is stressful and tiring. I am also so "down" about us not being able to go on a proper holiday again this year - Hunter just can not get leave. But I can handle all this - what gets to me is that I am still sick - I can not seem to get any better. I am getting the one cold after the other, the one tummy ache after the other and on Monday, I had a terrible migraine. According to the pharmacist, she hears it a lot from people that had the pigs - it takes months to recover. Just rest and a lot of vitamins she suggests. And off course as my SIL pointed out yesterday, rest actually means sleeping at night and then a bit. So not happening right now! Maybe next week, with my MIL visiting and two holidays, who knows! Definitely something to be thankful for.

I just have to point out that Hunter truly helps as much as can be expected of him. He has way too much on his plate as well, even more than I do. And he is also still constantly sick. This is not my hubby's fault - it is just circumstances.


  1. Sorry you are sick. You just gotta tell those sick people who keep infecting you to keep the hell away from you!! Hubby needs to help out a bit more with the nighttime duties especially since you are sick. Much as you appreciate his studying etc. You need the help now not later when the kids can take care of themselves. Anyhow, glad that you'll get a good break with your MIL being there for at least a week. Hang in there.

  2. So sorry you are sick. I was sick too for a week and just now getting over the cold. It's cold and flu season, ugh! I wish you a very speedy recovery.

    From SITS. :D

  3. Cat, I am so sorry you are still sick. I was hoping that you were all well. I will say this - when you are stressed & tired - I think it definitely has an affect on your immune system which can lead to sickness. Hang in and rest while MIL is there!!! Sending you hugs!

  4. I totally understand. I've been sick for awhile..first with the flu and now with a terrible head cold.
    Hope you are feeling better soon.

  5. So sorry you are sick. I can totally sympathize about the sleepless nights. My DH has been trying to help, but then like last night he accidentally grabbed the smaller bottle for Tommy and an hour later he couldn't figure out why he wouldn't go back to sleep. Once I figured out that he got the wrong bottle and still needed more formula, all was fixed and he went to sleep. But I did sleep until 4:30 AM this morning, which is the best that has happened since the boys were born in May.

    I hope you catch up on sleep after your MIL is with you.

  6. So sorry to read you are sick. Hope you feel better soon.

    Thanks for your comment on my blog.


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